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[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,10,true][atrb=style, width: 440px; background-image:url(http://i1081.photobucket.com/albums/j342/Rockiesaurus/black.png), bTable] TLTC WORDS, LUCAS/JD, COME SAVE HER LUCAS , OUTFIT ! para-para-paradise this couldn't be happening. no this couldn't be happening. surely, by some sheer luck, the test was faulty. well, not just this test but the other one she'd taken to make sure - surely the clear 'positives' written in way-too-happy pink were mistakes. duds. roxy shook her head slightly, gripping the second stick tightly, unable to focus on what she was really looking at. maybe this was an elaborate joke? it had to be didn't it? because roxy finnigan could not be pregnant. she was the smart one (supposedly), the eldest of her siblings and therefore the most responsible whether she was old enough to be having a boyfriend or not. she wasn't supposed to knock on an ex's door (now turned good friend) to hand him a christmas present and then get invited in and sleep with him. oh not that she was complaining at all, that night with lucas had been the best of her life, and being with him again had been the happiest weeks in a long, long time.. but this? she couldn't be pregnant, she just couldn't! she had exams to do, her n.e.w.ts where the most important thing's right now. she had her prefect duties to keep up with, she had her siblings to keep in line, she had her friend's to keep up with, her parent's to keep happy, and lucas. she had lucas. but if this was happening... would she still have him? the sudden thought sent ice to her stomach, freezing her right to the core. he wouldn't... leave her... would he? sure, the two had only been together a second time for a few weeks now, since that night, but after their close friendship and the fact that they'd already been in a relationship before and those feelings had never really gone well.. she could hardly deny she'd fallen for him. head over heels. the stuff that people sing about. she could only hope that he felt the same as her, and some part of her thought that he did, insecurities aside. she found herself bringing one hand to the heart necklace tucked away for the moment beneath her school uniform. the one lucas had scraped money together for to buy her even though she'd protested she didn't need anything so expensive, and that he was enough for her. she would always take good care of it. always. but he was only seventeen himself, if she told him she was pregnant.. what if he ran? she wouldn't blame him. it was one thing to commit yourself to a relationship, another to commit yourself to being a parent, and quite possibly to be with the same person for the rest of your life from such a young age. who was to say that he wouldn't come to despise her for this later on.. or even now? you see no matter the fact that she loved him dearly, and she thought he loved her in return, those doubts had settled in the fore front of her mind. what if he didn't or couldn't do this. could roxy be a single mother? she doubted it. not that she could get rid of the child, she wasn't so heartless. without concious thought tears began to slide down her cheeks and she gulped, suddenly finding it difficult to breath. vaugely she heard herself made a noise, and suddenly she was sobbing. great heaving sobs that raked her small body as she turned away from the sink and slid down it. roxy drew her knees to her chest and hugged her arms around herself, having dropped the tests in the sink. she couldn't do this. she just couldn't....

BY GABE IS A FWEAK AT CAUTION !

[LUCAS HARRY SHUNPIKE]

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[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,10,true][atrb=style, width: 440px; background-image:url(http://i1081.photobucket.com/albums/j342/Rockiesaurus/black.png), bTable] TLTC WORDS, LUCAS/JD, COME SAVE HER LUCAS <3, OUTFIT ! para-para-paradise she hadn't expected anyone to come in. not many people used this bathroom and so she'd thought she might have privacy. she had a couple of close friends, but she didn't want anyone to see her like this, not with tears streaming down her face, eyes swollen..she knew she looked awful, was at the worse point of her life right now, and she didn't want anyone to see her like this, not even lucas. if she were older, maybe she wouldn't be so upset because...well it might sound cliche but if she ever had kids she would want them to be lucas'. but she hadn't really thought that far ahead. sure, she'd always thought she'd get married and have children some day but it wasn't as though she'd planned it all out, she liked taking things how they came rather than sticking to a strict time line. her and lucas were just new to this second relationship she hadn't wanted to rush it...even if they had already slept together but still. still, she hadn't thought anyone would turn up here, and she'd been banking on it. she needed to figure things out. what was she supposed to do now? it was clear that she certainly was pregnant, there was no way she could deny it, there'd been several signs which had prompted her to take the two tests and with both of them positive. no she couldn't lie to herself ...but this meant.. she was going to have to figure something out. she was going to have to tell lucas first, nobody else. she would tell her closest friends but as far as she was concerned, lucas deserved to know before anyone else. she sniffed and wiped at her eyes, hoping her light layer of mascara hadn't run black rivers down her cheeks. she didn't think it had, though she couldn't really find the energy to care right now. then the door opened and through her watery glaze of tears she looked up, not having yet moved from her position, knees still too her chest. "roxy?!" oh no. she knew that voice. almost better than her own. she swallowed and took a deep shaky breath. lucas. it was a tribute to him that despite this, despite what she had to tell him, the fact that he was here made her feel a little bit better, and as his arm went around her she couldn't help but feel a spread of warmth. maybe things would be okay? and then she remembered that she was pregnant and that everything was crumbling around her and she might lose one of the best things in her life, the guy with his arm around her, and she felt a fresh wave of sobs. she sniffed and tried to calm down, wiping at her eyes again. she had to tell him, before she lost bottle. she wasn't and would never be one of those girls to tell someone else first and let the guy find out from rumours. she would never do that. not to lucas. "what's wrong?" she shook her head slightly, an indication that she couldn't talk at this moment, hiccuping as she tried to stop crying. "who do i have to beat up?" she wished she could smile at that, laugh. usually his jokes could cheer her up on the saddest of days, but not even the ghost of a smile appeared on her face as she took several deep breaths, finally retaining a little composure and the sobs calmed. she pushed her hair back from her face, letting her knees straighten so her legs were out in front of her rather than to her chest and she looked at lucas, her eyes glazed over slightly as she continued to think of everything that this meant. "lucas i'm pregnant." and then she felt fresh tears begin to trickle down her cheeks as she waited for him to take back his arm and run...

BY GABE IS A FWEAK AT CAUTION !

[LUCAS HARRY SHUNPIKE]

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[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,10,true][atrb=style, width: 440px; background-image:url(http://i1081.photobucket.com/albums/j342/Rockiesaurus/black.png), bTable] TLTC WORDS, LUCAS/JD, COME SAVE HER LUCAS <3, OUTFIT ! para-para-paradise she didn't know what she'd expected really. a part of her had thought he might run, might take back his arm and sprint for freedom, god she wouldn't have blamed him. but a smaller, more hopeful part of her prayed that he might hold her closer, put both his arms around her and smush her to his chest in a big bear hug and kiss her head and tell her it'd be okay, that he would stick by her, that he loved her. yet he didn't, and the longer she sat there and stared the more the hope fell away until she felt empty. this was it wasn't. one glorious night, several amazing weeks with him..and she'd only had to say the pregnancy word and he didn't want her anymore. well...who wanted to be a parent at this age? watch your girlfriend get fat, crave weird foods, throw up every morning, get grumpy... as these thoughts ran through her head her eyes filled with tears once more. she thought she'd run out of tears, but apparently she really was surprising herself today as they streaked her cheeks once more. "lucas...lucas say something." she whispered, her voice cracking with fear and she knew, desperation. she was scared...no not scared, terrifyed. absolutely crapping herself to think that she was carrying a child right now, that she had nine months to go through, before she'd have to give birth and then after? no she couldn't even go there. and she was going to have to do it alone? "please...p-please lucas, anything!" she begged, staring at him, turning to face him properly, one of her hands reaching out to grasp his arm gently. she needed him right now, more than anything, anyone... she needed him to stay by her because.. otherwise she had no idea. as he remained a statue her face fell, the hope faded from her gaze, replaced by fear and hurt and she choked back a sob and rose to her feet. the room swam before her eyes, spinning and she put a hand to her head before it settled, shutting her eyes for a moment in attempt to think. "i'm j-just..g-g-oing to g-go... i'm s-sorry." her voice was faint she didn't think she coping very well, and she didn't think she would. she didn't know where to go and she paused for a moment where she was, standing where she'd been sitting a second ago. the forbidden forest? her dorm? a different pathroom? the quidditch pitch? somewhere where she could be alone.. anywhere were she could wallow and try to figure this out. she put a hand to her mouth as she felt the sobs try to rise again, knowing how much of a mess she was right now and she shook her head slightly and made to hurry for the door, unable to look back at lucas for fear of what she might see in his gaze...

BY GABE IS A FWEAK AT CAUTION !

[LUCAS HARRY SHUNPIKE]

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[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,10,true][atrb=style, width: 440px; background-image:url(http://i1081.photobucket.com/albums/j342/Rockiesaurus/black.png), bTable] TLTC WORDS, LUCAS/JD, COME SAVE HER LUCAS <3, OUTFIT ! para-para-paradise even if he hadn't spoken what he was thinking, she didn't doubt that it was't a good sign. if you told a guy something important, like the fact that she was pregnant - a life altering thing such as a baby was - if they didn't say something, didn't that mean they didn't want it? she would understand. they were only young, they had school to be thinking about - exams this year that would be the difference between leaving hogwarts with a job offer, and leaving with nothing. sure, she would still be pregnant during the exams, but she'd be a lot bigger by then, and she'd still have to think about everything baby-related. where the hell was she going to live? she couldn't stay at home, her parent's and siblings surely didn't want a new born baby screaming it's lungs off under their roof, but where else could she go? and how would she even have the money for her own place? how could she work when she had a kid? every thought hurt like a blade as she tried to think things through, succeeding only in upsetting herself further, she knew she'd have to think about all this. she couldn't wait until nine months down the road and she was in labour. oh heck even that word sent tremors of terror down her spine. women always had horror stories about that part of the pregnancy, the long drawn out hours and hours of agony... some women died. what if... what if she died? roxy felt cold as that thought arose. why had she even let herself get to that. yes she had to consider all aspects of the pregnancy but the very realistic thought that she might die because of it was more than terrifying. she had to stop thinking about this, she was getting ahead of herself and freaking herself out. roxy swallowed and ran a shaky hand through her hair. she had just enough thought to glance back at the sink and wave her wand at the tests, vanishing them lest someone else find them and word get out. she couldn't look at lucas. he didn't want her, didn't want this, she shouldn't bother him with her desperation. but when she tried to walk away, wiping at her eyes with one hand, she felt him grab her other and she was jerked to a stand still. confused, roxy looked back, letting him turn her back toward him, eyes looking up into his face as he pulled her against his body, feeling his hand rest against her back. what was he doing? what did he want from her? she couldn't even protest, form any word as he kissed her, all coherent thought leaving her for a moment as she kissed him back, knowing that there was a hint of desperation behind it; fear. was he saying goodbye? good luck? a cruel way to do so if he was... she didn't want him to pull back from the kiss, she could kiss lucas forever, but he did, and she bit her lower lip and looked up at him after a few seconds, almost scared to. "hm... nope." or half a second she faltered. nope? nope what? nope he didn't want this? nope he couldnt do this? her eyes began to water for a second, the single word piercing her heart until he finished his sentence. "guess what, roxy? i still love you." she felt such a swell of relief that she almost folded at the knees. of course a part of her said that this didn't mean he wanted to do this... but the most part of her? relief. a rush of warmth for him swept through her and settled around her heart. she wasn't alone.. she had lucas. "i love you too..." she said softly, looking up at him, knowing that.. this was the first time they'd said the words to each other. "let's do this." despite needing to hear those words she still chewed on her lower lip, glancing down at the floor to her right - seeing as she was pressed so close to lucas. "are you sure?" she couldn't help asking, still unable to look at him for fear that he would shake his head and leave. "you're only seventeen.. you have your whole life ahead of you lucas. i don't want to condemn you to anything.." she swallowed and glanced at him for a second. sure these things were true for her too, she was seventeen and she had had a whole life planned... but there was nothing she could do about it, she was already pregnant and she could never get rid of the child. but if lucas was only doing this because he felt bad or only because she wanted him to then she didn't want that. sure nobody wanted a kid right now.. not this age... but she didn't want him to feel forced to say yes. she loved him too much to take away his life like this... not unless he was sure... not unless he wanted to.

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[LUCAS HARRY SHUNPIKE]

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[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,10,true][atrb=style, width: 440px; background-image:url(http://i1081.photobucket.com/albums/j342/Rockiesaurus/black.png), bTable] TLTC WORDS, LUCAS/JD, COME SAVE HER LUCAS <3, OUTFIT ! para-para-paradise she chewed on her lower lip after he'd spoken, eyes on the floor. she wanted to be able to take his words and believe them. but she couldn't. it wasn't that she believed lucas would lie to her, because he was the most honest guy she knew. he wouldn't lie but...she just didn't want to feel like he was forced into this, pressured. he was the same age as her and he still had a choice.. sure, this was his kid as much as hers but he didn't have to carry it, he could still leave and never look back... even if the thought of that was like a knife to her heart. sure, he was still here right now, one hand in his, one hand on her back, holding her close but...what if he didn't really think about everything? he wasn't freaking out for one thing - sure on one hand she was glad as heck that he wasn't, because she needed his strength and support right now, but on the other hand did that mean he didn't get it? that this would alter the rest of their lives forever? lucas wasn't an idiot, she knew that, but she didn't want him to walk into this with his eyes shut. it would hurt more if they left hogwarts together, began to raise the child together, only for him to find it hard and give up a year or two down the road.. or maybe more or less time. she already loved him but the longer she was with him the more she fell in love with him, and the more it would hurt if he left her. she tried to breathe, to calm herself down despite how her heart hammered so hard against her chest she was sure lucas could feel it. she'd done it now. she'd told him she loved him to, there was no going back from that. she did - through the years she'd fallen further and further for him until she was completely head over heels. she glanced at him as she said it and noticed his grin, her tears halting as she saw his grin. at least he wasn't angry at her for saying it. she had to ask him though, had to tell him to consider this for sure. "am i sure..." she heard him repeat and she nodded slightly and bit her lower lip still, nervous about his answer, in case he'd turned it around and decided he had been wrong before. she had never heard him so serious and it was surprising, but nice to know that he was taking this seriously. that this wasn't a joke to him. as he let go of her hand she swallowed, scared he would walk away from her now. but no, instead he was touching the underside of her chin and raising it. she couldn't look away from him anymore and she tilted her head up, her eyes now searching his. "roxy... that's our baby. yours and mine. i'm not going to let you face this alone when being away from you would hurt me as much as doing so would hurt you. you're not condemning me to anything but a family." she half smiled, just the slightest smile, having felt a squeeze of her heart at the way he'd said her name, the way he'd said 'our baby. yours and mine'. "our baby..." she murmured, trying the words out and finding that she didn't hate them. they were foreign but... they didn't make her want to run. they were different but she found that though the future was scary, the way she thought that she was carrying their child was almost.. precious. and for the first time she felt a flash of something that wasn't fear. she was glad he felt the same. that if he left he would hurt as much as she would. they were so deep into this, but she didn't care, she felt that the man in front of her was someone she could love forever. "sure, it's five to ten years ahead of schedule, but you prefects always were overachievers..." she even gave a slight laugh at that, through the tears still on her cheeks she laughed. her lips tilted upward and she gazed at him. one of her hands reached up and she trailed her fingertips over his cheek gently, a touch of clear affection, before she cupped his cheek, took a deep breath and nodded. "okay ... let's do this." she said gently with a slight smile, if a little worried, before she stretched onto her tip toes and tried to bring his face down gently to kiss him, sealing the promise of their future together forever upon their lips.

BY GABE IS A FWEAK AT CAUTION !